As you know – or should know if you read the about section of this website/blog – I will be a new father very soon. This will be my first taste of fatherhood. I’m excited, afraid and everything in between.
I don’t know what to expect or how our lives will change exactly. That’s the scary part.
But that’s also exciting. This will be a new experience for both me and Mrs. Swartzy. I’m looking forward to meeting Swartzy Jr. I can’t wait to hold him in my arms. Being a parent, I feel, will be challenging, but also rewarding.
I hope little Swartzy is a good sleeper, well behaved, and doesn’t cry a lot. Some I days I don’t have much patience. Some days I feel tired and grumpy even when I get a decent night’s sleep. Some days I feel like I have a million things to do and will never get them done.
Adding a child on top of that brings me great stress. How will we do it? Can we do it?
I’m not sure of the how part, but I know we can do it. I know that I need to step up and do more things around the house to help Mrs. Swartzy. I need to learn to breathe and relax. It will take some time.
I just want to be a good dad. I want to be a good mentor. I want my son to be better than me. I want him to have a better life.
Don’t get me wrong, my life is great. I love being in love with the Missus. We have great jobs that pay the bills. We have a beautiful home and two dogs that keep us on our toes. And we’ll have a son soon, too.
I want him to be smart, good looking and successful. But most of all I want him to be healthy, respectful, moral, and happy. I know, that’s quite a bit to ask for.
I don’t want him to be like me. I worry too much. I’m not a great talker or communicator. I’m very introverted. Those things make life challenging at times.
Are we ready for a baby in our lives? I’m not so sure. We probably aren’t.
Only now is the reality setting in for us that we will have a huge new responsibility in our life very soon. If we’re not ready now, we’ll have to get ready fast.
That’s scary. But it’s also exciting.